you're not, you're not perfect, you're not good enough, and you dont try hard enough
but its ok, i understand you, trust me, let me help you to change all of that.
lets start with the obvious, just look in the mirror, do i have to tell you that you have to get rid of that disgusting body? i can help you! i promise! we will become great friends.
it will start slowly, reading nutrition labels, decreasing your fat intake, eating and feeling guilty.
you're not allowed to eat much.
for a while the exercise will be simple, but it wont be long before i tell you it isnt good enough, i will PUSH YOU TO THE LIMIT.
pretty soon i will always be with you, the numbers become both friend and enemy
dont forget, there will always be at least some fat there
i will be there when you figure out the plan for the day, i'm the one figuring this out because by now i follow you throughout the day.
when meal time comes around, i will tell you what to do.
you will cheat and lie to your friends and family because they disturb our close relationship.
i will show you only the flesh that seperates you from me.
but you must not know this, because if you knew the truth, you might start to eat again.
and we would come crashing down.
i know you will rebel, your eyes will move over the tempting poison
you'll find your hands reaching out for it like a nightmare
you shove it all in mechanically, not tasting and all the time i'm screaming at you to
STOP YOU FAT COW! you really have no self control! you're going to get fat!
when its over, you'll cling to me again and ask me for advice.
i force you without a great deal of strain to get rid of the guilt.
but no one will notice. you pretend and play this perfect game.
its our little secret.
oh is this harsh? do you not want this to happen to you? am i unfair?
i do do things that will help you.
i make it possible for you to stop thinking about emotions and i feel your head with......me.
i am your only instrument to express anything from the past that you're not even aware of.
i will give you feelings of strength, willpower, and control.
i will always be there when you need me.
i will give you hope of achieving perfection and purity.
i will make you believe that you can fly away from everything.
but you must not tell anyone! if you decide to fight back, all hell will break loose!
because you need me to survive.
once i have settled down in your mind it is hard to get rid of me.
yes this is me...