Just like many Americans, I am saddened, scared, and
terrified over the announcement over the election results. What feeling that I
am experiencing the most? Shock. Shock that so many people in a country I live
in would want a bully as president. Yes, a bully. And go ahead, you can call me
a bully for calling him names, at this point, I do not care. If there is one
thing I have learned over the years of therapy I have received for the
treatment of my anorexia nervosa and PTSD, it is not to care what people think
or say about me.
What is scarier than having a bully, racist, sexist,
homophobic, prejudice, hateful man win, is knowing that I am part of a country
of people that allowed this to happen. I
grew up being taught that the country I live in is free. Which includes free of
hate, free of racism, free of bullying, and a place that I should feel safe in.
But I don’t.
First of all, bullying is never ok. It really hits close to home when he is
bullying people for the same things that I struggle with. One being disability.
I will never unsee the time he mimicked the disabled man’s arms and called him
dumb. He acted as though we was a worthier person because he does not have a
disability. What does this mean for those who do have disabilities? Are we
going to lose our funding? Are we all going to become homeless simply because
we are not as fortunate as those who can work fulltime jobs? I too have a
disability, a few. I call them invisible disabilities because when you look at
me, or talk to me, you might not assume that I am disabled. My anorexia, depression, gastroparesis, and
postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome makes It almost impossible to work a
full time job. Without my disability assistance I would be homeless, or more
likely dead. What is even more hurtful is how many people complain sbout
needing to pay taxes. I would be happy to be fortunate enough to pay taxes to
help someone in need like myself. I have even encountered people who know I am
on disability and complain about the assistance people receive. So many take
for granted being healthy enough to work.
Some people know, others do not know that I am a sexual
abuse and rape survivor. With all the comments he has made towards woman,
seeing us as objects and items, it has infuriated me to the maximum. Not only
that, I feel unsafe to have him as president for us women. He rates woman on a “1-10” scale saying “woman
who do not have breasts are impossible to be a 10.” We are more than looks, we
are more than a sexual object, and hell most of us are more intelligent than a
lot of men are. How is it safe to have a president who talks this way about
woman? How is it morally ok!?
His racism is unbelievable. Sure, he may not be attacking
blacks, but attacking Muslims and Latinos Is the EXACT same thing. Saying all Muslims
are terrorists is like saying all black people are drug dealers and criminals.
How do we explain this man to our children? How do we
justify all the wrongful things he has said and done? A child is supposed to
look up to a president. I remember being in elementary school and how many of
my classmates wanted to be president when they got older. Trump is not a good
role model for our children to look up to as president. How do we teach our
daughters how valuable they truly are when their president says the opposite?
How do we teach our sons to treat woman with respect when their president does
not? How do we tell our kids that bullying is wrong when our president is a
bully?
I can’t believe the beautiful country I live in contains so
many people who are willing to stand by and possibly watch it disintegrate like
snow on a hot surface. It is only a matter of time before hell breaks
loose. There have already been horrible
things happening such as the following; American Muslim women who wear the
hijab agonized over whether it’s still safe to wear it, demonstrators have set
fires and overturned cars in major cities across America, global financial
markets have gone haywire, former KKK leader David Duke declared tonight ‘one
of the most exciting nights of my life,’ shares in renewable energy companies
tanked, while shares in arms companies surged to a record high, Russia’s
political establishment celebrated, Canada’s immigration website crashed under
the demand of American visitors, Jihadi leaders welcomed the new US president,
and Mexico’s foreign minister made it clear they wouldn’t pay for a wall. And
this is all in only 24 hours.
I don’t care how outraged people get by my blog post. I
write to share my thoughts and feelings and truths. I don’t write to please
others.
